Amber
Quick Facts
Amber is Fallon O'Neil’s best friend and Los Angeles roommate—a frank, funny, unwavering ally who keeps Fallon grounded when everything else feels volatile.
- Role: Protective confidante, reality-check, and comic relief
- First appearance: At Fallon’s LA apartment on the first November 9, when Ben shows up unexpectedly
- Home base: Los Angeles; shares an apartment with Fallon
- Key relationships: Fallon (best friend), Glenn (long-term boyfriend), Benton (Ben) James Kessler (Fallon’s love interest, whom Amber vets then supports)
Who They Are
Amber is the steady heartbeat of Fallon’s everyday life. She’s the kind of friend who sets boundaries, cracks the joke that cuts tension, and steps in when Fallon’s self-doubt spirals. The novel’s high drama belongs to romance and family; Amber’s lane is consistency. By showing up—cheering auditions, interrogating dubious suitors, and ceding center stage when it matters—she models the dependable love that helps Fallon heal.
Personality & Traits
Amber blends warmth with bluntness, using humor to defuse awkwardness while fiercely protecting Fallon’s wellbeing. Her steadiness doesn’t stunt the plot—it enables it.
- Loyal and protective: She immediately interrogates Ben when he appears at the apartment, proving she prioritizes Fallon’s safety over social niceties. Later, she defends Fallon at the club by literally throwing her shoe at Theodore.
- Supportive coach: She urges Fallon to reclaim her pre-fire confidence—celebrating the New York move as a step toward independence and pushing her to date and audition rather than retreat.
- Direct and funny: When she catches Fallon and Ben making out in the hallway, her deadpan aside about “getting pregnant” punctures awkwardness and restores perspective.
- Perceptive facilitator: She recognizes the weight of Fallon and Ben’s connection and, crucially, steps aside at the airport so they can have those last minutes together.
- Stable by design: Her loving, drama-free relationship with Glenn acts as a foil to the once-a-year chaos of Fallon and Ben, showing what healthy partnership looks like.
Character Journey
Amber doesn’t transform—she refines. She begins as a protective gatekeeper, suspicious of Ben, and quickly shifts into an informed supporter once she sees his effect on Fallon. That arc—from scrutiny to trust—matters: her loyalty is never blind. Instead, it’s calibrated to Fallon’s growth. Across the years, Amber’s presence becomes a quiet throughline of care: she coaxes Fallon back into public spaces, advocates when Fallon’s self-worth falters, and offers everyday normalcy against the novel’s whirlwind revelations. Her static nature is purposeful; the point is that someone in Fallon’s orbit is reliably safe.
Key Relationships
- Fallon O’Neil: Amber is Fallon’s anchor—empathetic but not enabling. She refuses to let Fallon be defined by trauma, nudging her toward risks (auditions, relationships) that rebuild identity. Their intimacy lets Amber challenge Fallon without breaking trust.
- Benton (Ben) James Kessler: Initially, Amber vets him like a bouncer at an exclusive club: Who is he? What does he want? When she sees Ben affirm Fallon’s agency instead of exploiting her vulnerabilities, she becomes a measured ally—facilitating their airport goodbye and later advocating for reconciliation.
- Glenn: With Glenn, Amber models mutual respect and stability. Their low-drama partnership contrasts the intensity of Fallon and Ben, quietly teaching Fallon what sustainable love looks like.
- Donovan O'Neil: Though Amber isn’t directly entangled with Fallon’s father, she functions as a counterweight to his neglect. Where Donovan’s approval is conditional and distant, Amber’s support is immediate and constant—reshaping Fallon’s sense of what love should feel like.
Defining Moments
Amber’s impact concentrates in decisive beats that protect Fallon and push the love story forward.
- Meeting Ben at the apartment
- What happens: Amber interrogates the stranger in her doorway, making him justify his presence.
- Why it matters: It establishes her as Fallon’s first line of defense and sets a boundary: anyone who wants access to Fallon must be vetted.
- The airport handoff
- What happens: Scheduled to drive Fallon, Amber knowingly steps aside so Ben can take her instead.
- Why it matters: It’s a selfless act of emotional intelligence—Amber prioritizes Fallon’s emerging happiness over her own plans, legitimizing the relationship.
- Club confrontation with Theodore
- What happens: When Theodore insults Fallon, Amber hurls her shoe and unleashes a blistering takedown.
- Why it matters: The moment fuses humor with fury, translating loyalty into action and reminding Fallon she deserves respect—publicly and unequivocally.
- Hallway interruption
- What happens: Amber catches Fallon and Ben mid-makeout and cracks a dry, boundary-setting joke.
- Why it matters: Her wit normalizes intimacy without glamorizing secrecy, keeping Fallon’s choices grounded in real life, not fantasy.
Symbolism
Amber embodies the steady, relational scaffolding of Grief and Healing. If Ben catalyzes transformation, Amber sustains it. She’s the quiet routine—the rides, the pep talks, the laughter after hard days—that allows Fallon to function, risk vulnerability, and ultimately thrive. As the novel lurches between secrecy and revelation, Amber’s dependable friendship is the compass that keeps Fallon from drifting.
Essential Quotes
"Hi," she finally says, still staring at him. "Who are you?" She looks at me and points to Ben. "Who is he?"
Amber opens as a gatekeeper: no flirtation, no preamble, just verification. The blunt questioning protects Fallon and frames Amber’s love as practical first, sentimental second.
For real though. Glenn and I can see everything going on in this hallway. I thought I’d intervene before you got pregnant.
Her humor sets boundaries without shaming. By turning the moment into a joke, Amber diffuses tension while reminding Fallon that real relationships happen in the open, not just behind closed doors.
"To waking up on November 10th and having no memory of the 9th."
This toast, equal parts irreverent and tender, captures Amber’s ability to honor the mythology of November 9 while keeping it from swallowing everyday life. She validates the ritual—and keeps it from becoming a prison.
"Just forgive him already. Glenn found a member of the male species he actually likes, and if you don’t forgive Ben you’ll break Glenn’s heart."
Amber’s plea marries heart and logic: empathy for Ben, affection for Glenn, and a nudge for Fallon toward grace. It shows her shift from skeptic to advocate, pushing for reconciliation not out of naivety but out of clear-eyed care.
