CHAPTER SUMMARY
The Pushby Ashley Audrain

Chapter 61-65 Summary

Opening

Maternal instinct, grief, and betrayal collide as Blythe Connor confronts her daughter’s cruelty and uncovers the truth about her husband’s double life. A shattering flashback to her own mother’s abandonment propels her into a dangerous investigation that ends with a devastating revelation.


What Happens

Chapter 61: The Instincts of a Mother

Blythe meditates on the brain’s fear centers and the oxytocin bond between mother and child, remembering a viral clip where a British aristocrat saves her young son three times without thinking. One Sunday, Violet Connor finds the same video on Blythe’s phone and watches it beside her—staring at Blythe instead of the screen. When it ends, Violet murmurs, “The mom saves her kid every time,” a surgical strike aimed at Blythe’s guilt over Sam Connor.

Rage surges through Blythe; for a moment she wants to hurt Violet. She forces herself into the kitchen and breaks down over the sink, consumed by grief as Sam’s fourth birthday approaches.

Chapter 62: She

Now living alone with Violet, Blythe feels the absence of Fox Connor everywhere—especially on the blank wall where a mother-and-child painting once hung. She tries to connect: spaghetti, a movie, some semblance of normal. Violet refuses, prim and distant. During dinner, Violet mentions Fox’s new partner only as “she,” then notes the woman owns the same cashmere sweater Blythe impulsively bought when Fox moved out.

Violet lets slip that Fox’s apartment is “their place,” implying cohabitation, then twists the knife with, “There’s something you should know about her,” before withholding the detail. The power play isolates Blythe further, leaving her spiraling and certain that both Fox and Violet are keeping her in the dark.

Chapter 63: Annie, Honey

A flashback drops Blythe at age twelve, celebrating a science fair win with Thomas and Mrs. Ellington. In a diner, she spots her estranged mother, Cecilia, transformed—silky voice, a fitted blouse, radiant confidence—on the arm of a flashy man who calls her, “Annie, honey.” Blythe freezes. She wills Cecilia to see her; she doesn’t. The realization is brutal: her mother is thriving without her.

That night, Blythe’s shame and hurt curdle into a single, terrible wish. On her knees, she prays for her mother to die—believing death would be less painful than watching Cecilia become someone new. The memory explains Blythe’s terror of being replaced now.

Chapter 64: Cecilia

In the present, Blythe’s fixation on Fox’s girlfriend intensifies. Fox refuses to arrange a meeting, and Violet keeps dropping barbed hints. Learning that the couple has a standing conflict on Wednesdays, Blythe goes to their building, follows a woman with long, curly hair—Gemma—and trails her into a bookstore hosting a moms’ group.

Blythe slips inside under the name “Cecilia,” and watches Gemma glow among affectionate mothers with their babies. The scene confirms Blythe’s deepest fear: Fox has replaced her with another mother—seemingly the kind he always wanted. Blythe thinks, with cold clarity, that he has found a better mother for their daughter.

Chapter 65: Anne

Blythe returns to the next meeting in a brown wig and calls herself “Anne.” Sitting beside Gemma, she improvises a cover story about two daughters—then falters and tells a sliver of truth: “I have one. He’s four. His name is Sam.” Gemma shares that she has a five-month-old son, born in June. Blythe calculates: conception in September, months before she asked Fox to leave.

The timeline exposes a long-standing affair. Gemma, warm and unwitting, shows photos of the baby boy and praises Fox as a wonderful father. The image of a child who shares Sam’s DNA crushes Blythe. As she leaves, Gemma squints, says Blythe looks familiar, then shrugs it off as a resemblance to her spin instructor. In the taxi, Blythe calls Fox four times to ask whether the baby looks like Sam. He doesn’t answer.


Character Development

Blythe’s past and present fuse into a single drive: prevent her own erasure. These chapters shift her from grief-stricken passivity to relentless pursuit, even if it means becoming someone else.

  • Blythe Connor: Turns investigator—stalking, disguising, and infiltrating—to force the truth into the open; her aliases echo her unresolved trauma and fear of replacement.
  • Violet Connor: Evolves from difficult to calculating; she weaponizes knowledge and timing to dominate Blythe emotionally.
  • Fox Connor: Recast as an adulterer living a double life; his grief-stricken persona collapses under the weight of the affair and secret child.
  • Gemma: The image of effortless motherhood Blythe believes she lacks; her kindness intensifies the betrayal by contrast.
  • Cecilia: The original blueprint for reinvention and abandonment; her transformation haunts every choice Blythe makes.

Themes & Symbols

These chapters tighten the knot between personal history and present choices, showing how old wounds script new betrayals.

  • Nature vs. Nurture and Generational Trauma: The diner flashback supplies the origin of Blythe’s terror—being erased by a mother who reinvents herself. Blythe’s aliases and pursuit of Gemma replay this trauma; she can’t stop seeing herself as the disposable daughter and now, the replaceable mother.
  • Marital Breakdown and Betrayal: The affair reframes the separation not as incompatibility but duplicity. Fox’s new son proves the marriage was compromised long before Blythe recognized it, casting his coldness and absence in a new, corrosive light.
  • Perception, Reality, and Gaslighting: Violet’s hints and Fox’s refusal to introduce Gemma keep Blythe doubting herself. By investigating, Blythe pierces the fog—yet the truth is more destabilizing than the lies.
  • Symbol: Disguise and Names: The wig and the aliases “Cecilia” and “Anne” embody Blythe’s fractured identity; to face the truth, she borrows her mother’s masks. Becoming “Cecilia/Anne” is both an investigative tactic and a psychic reenactment of the very erasure she fears.

Key Quotes

“The mom saves her kid every time.” Blythe hears Violet’s verdict as an accusation masked as observation. It targets the core of her guilt about Sam and flips the ideal of maternal instinct into a weapon.

“Annie, honey.” The pet name seals Cecilia’s reinvention. To young Blythe, it proves her mother has stepped into a new role—one with no place for her child—igniting the lifelong dread of being replaced.

“There’s something you should know about her.” Violet asserts control by dangling information, then withdrawing it. The line exposes their inverted power dynamic: the child orchestrates the mother’s anxiety.

“You had found a better mother for our daughter. The kind of woman you always wanted.” Blythe articulates her deepest fear: that motherhood is a competition she has already lost. The thought fuses jealousy, grief, and self-erasure.

“I have one. He’s four. His name is Sam.” Blythe’s cover cracks; grief insists on truth. Naming Sam collapses her disguise and underscores how the dead still govern her present.


Why This Matters and Section Significance

These chapters pivot the novel from inner doubt to external betrayal. Blythe’s discovery of Fox’s affair and new baby validates her sense of isolation and recasts past events—his distance, Violet’s secrecy—as parts of a concealed narrative. The personal history with Cecilia becomes the engine of Blythe’s methods and mistakes, binding generational trauma to present choices. With the truth finally in hand, the stakes sharpen: Blythe must confront not just Violet’s menace and her own grief, but the reality that her family has already been rebuilt without her.